Sometimes my emotions are so powerful I feel mentally drained. I have this problem that no matter how many people I’m around or how happy I should be, I never feel fullfilled. Something is always missing or I am always searching for more. I feel bad for Sean because he really does try to make me so happy (and he does succeed) but perhaps I am just too complex to show satisfaction. I feel like I am searching for something that I will never find in this life, something that can put my mind at peace. My head is always so busy, it’s so hard for me to find peace or a moment of calamity. Just a few thoughts. Maybe writing more will de-clutter my mind. I can only hope there is a solution out there.